Since I don't have you around to tell you anything, I will post everything here. It's hardly been a while since we stopped talking to each other, and I feel like I've lost my lungs or my heart or something. I feel so uneasy without you. I haven't anything but one Snickers all day. I don't feel like eating at all.
I feel weird when I check my Facebook, and you're not there. I feel weird when I see my Twitter, my Yahoo, my Last.fm, and you're not there. It was so stupid of me to do something so horrible even though I was not thinking straight. I feel so incomplete with out you :( You'll always be my best friend.
That said, I want to tell you how my day was. I will hopefully be doing this frequently until I start talking to you for real, and I hope the day comes soon. I really miss you, and I want to do everything that would keep you happy, whatever you would ask of me. There is no punishment worse than you staying away for me like this. It's so heart-breaking.
This is my first holi without a single loved one - friends or family. I missed everyone back home, and I missed you. I hope you, your family and the twins had a great time. I did nothing much today, except for skimming around on DeviantArt looking for stock photos of Jensen Ackles & Tom Welling to do some editing on for you. What I find out was, a lot of photos of Dean have your comments in them :) Not so surprising :D But I didn't find anything today, may be because I wasn't looking with much heart. But I promise I will look for something tomorrow too. And I will make it retro like you love it, not all glittery and starry and dramatic like I do.
I also saw a documentary, 'Reel Bad Arabs', something about Hollywood stereotyping the Arab world in the movies ever since they started making movies. I don't think you will like it. I also downloaded some music off your last.fm list, bright eyes and some more. I will listen to it, and keep listening to it until our tastes are High at least :) I've also been listening to Mew, they're also very good. I will recommend if you haven't heard it before. There is a song called The Zookeeper's Boy which I am sure you will love.
My Dad called me up, and wished me Happy Holi, so did his younger brother, my uncle. I also heard my mother's voice. I spoke to Shruti, but she got mad at me because I hadn't eaten anything all day long. I have lost appetite lol .. She has been having fun in Holi :) I told her I love her and she just asked me to shut up. Nope, she wasn't pissed, she said it with a whole lot of love. I could tell from her tone :)
My Dad called me up, and wished me Happy Holi, so did his younger brother, my uncle. I also heard my mother's voice. I spoke to Shruti, but she got mad at me because I hadn't eaten anything all day long. I have lost appetite lol .. She has been having fun in Holi :) I told her I love her and she just asked me to shut up. Nope, she wasn't pissed, she said it with a whole lot of love. I could tell from her tone :)
Rest of the day, nothing much. Just praying the storm comes and we get an extended weekend. Exams are close, so I started studying. I did a little bit of Matrix addition in Maths. It doesn't seem that tough, but I am surprised why he hasn't given a question bank yet. I just did the questions he gave in class. Other than that, I have just been listening to a lot of music. Also, I've been planning how to study, you know, just planning. That has been going on since 1st semester. But now I really want to do well, since I am guessing, it would be a good way to make you a little happy from my side. ]
I also downloaded Unreal Tournament 3, and I've been playing it. I love this game. I feel great when I play it :D
That will be all for now. I miss you very much, and I love you very much. And them both, Laado and Pari. See you tomorrow, Komal :)
